I was raised in 80s and it was a sin

..I was told. BUT...I am a full time hard working mom. I have four children and 2 are twins. Married 5xs...so trauma yes. My choices to leave no...but they wanted different. My self esteem gone. Ummmm...I have 4 lil gbabies...3.boys 1 girl. I am clinical diagnosed as manic depression and bi popar disorder one...menopause and in debt....migraines yes...no sleep yes.. So weed Helps....for sure.. I'm a firm believer weed is good. But I keep it quit from the ones in my family who don't because...its out of respect I think? So that we can co exist???