As someone who is bipolar and has a history of cutting and burning myself, cannabis is the only thing that has helped keep me stable. More so than prescriptions. I look at this plant as medicine, not a drug. But, it has left me wondering if I’m upsetting God. I have been taught that nothing is impossible with God. I whole heartedly believe this, but prayer and denouncing depression hasn’t helped. I haven’t harmed myself in several years, and yes I still have very dark, low moments of depression. I’m talking suicidal thoughts. Taking out a blade and holding it, fighting the voices that are telling me to do it, to remember how good it felt to run the razor through my skin. Cannabis doesn’t take away the thoughts, but it keeps me from acting on them.